Is there anything left to love?

A flower only has so many petals,
Every time one more is taken,
I can’t help but wonder,
What happens when the last is given away?

Is there anything left to love?
Who could love a flower without petals?
What man would keep a fruitless tree?

When love is free,
Who’s left to fight for?
Why bother waiting
When life is nothing more than instant gratification.

We live in the moment,
So we can die in the next.
What for?
Just a hint of truth?

What if the truth isn’t what we want to hear?
Effortlessly we tune to another station
It has become too easy,
To run,
To hide.

Stop playing with the dial
The truth is here,
The truth is now.

Stop throwing love around,
It is not just another four letter word,
It is far from an everyday feeling.

Guard yourself
Save something for tomorrow
Before there is nothing left to love.

Push past the fear (revised)

It’s time to push past the fear
And hold back the tears
While we look for the day
When we find the truth

The hour we find the connection
Between you and me
The minute we find the rose in a pile of thorns
The second we find the smile hidden in the shadows

Whether you are tall or short,
Black or white,
There is really no difference,

We are all looking for
The light in the darkness
The music in our silent world

We are all searching for something to hold us together
But only finding ways to drive us apart

We connect by disconnecting
Mechanically decaying from the inside out

We leave our mark
By marking those around us

We strive for a beauty beyond words
Only to end up destroy the beauty around us

We live by watching the lives of others
Leaving us with a disillusioned reality
No longer able to tell the difference
Between whom we think we are,
And the person within

We are nothing more than
A bunch of souls
Broken and searching
Searching for something more
Something real
Something to hold in our trembling hands

But the thought of something greater
Is so out of reach
So out of sight
In the back of our minds
Dusty and unused
Forgotten and trampled
Like our childhood dreams

Have we forgotten what means to be alive?
Have we surrendered to mere existence?

No one chooses to be blind
So why do we refuse to see?

It’s time to push past the fear
And hold back the tears
And look for the day
When we find the truth

Look in the mirror

Today came and ended
As fast a spark of fire
In a field of fog
It did not come without its surprises

I met a girl today
She had much to share
With no words
She gave her story

She was the girl in the mirror
She held her head up high
While looking around
To see who was in the room,

I watched from a distance
My presence was left unknown

I watched as she pulled out a knife
Lifted her purple sleeve
And made a cut
She winced in pain
Her tears made puddles on the counter surrounding her

She looked so perfect
So gentle and fair
Why did she hurt herself?
I wondered in disbelief

She was to be the prom queen
She had everything
That one could only begin to dream of

Such beauty
Came at a price
The price was the mask she wore
Hiding the pain
Holding back the tears
Walking in fear
Of being alone

This girl in the mirror
Knew none of what I saw
To myself I will keep
This experience I will never share

I wondered who she was
Deep inside
She was obviously hiding
No one really knew
This secret that she bared

For years and years
Nobody really knew
4 years have gone by
Since that day
I met the girl

Something has changed
Something is different
She looks happy
So peaceful and sweet
Everyone around is swimming in her charismatic joy
If only they knew about that day
I met the girl in the mirror.

Better man

I wish you were a better man,

So I could hold on to our precious moments

Just like the other girls.

I wish I could look forward,

To the day, you walk me down the aisle.

Hating you like this hurts

It hurts when I fall

And there’s no one there to help me up

I walk through this evil world

Without your guiding strength

It’s slowly eating away at my soul,

Killing my innocence

And starving my smile.

Each time I cannot smile

I give my body

For love,

A father’s love

I’m dying to be daddy’s little girl

I wonder every day

If my father up above

Is just like you

Never there

Never listening,

I wish you were a better man

I wish I could be daddy’s little girl.

Summer Boy

He was the first boy to steal my heart
He was my first kiss
And my first broken heart

He was a boy from the 90’s
With a piercing in his left ear
Wind blowing in his hair
Summers ago we watched the clouds
Swam in his pool playing childish games

It was just a game
All fun and tame
Until that rainy day in May
I’m getting too old to just play
Were simply his last words

He had this way about him
Laughing about everything
Smiling like it was all okay
Nothing mattered but him and his ego

Until he got a flat tire
Sitting on the side of the road
Wanting to play games
He chased me with a smile
Forgetting the pain from our past
He wanted to have some fun

Gently I whispered
It’s over now
It’s too late to play games
It’s nothing but a distant memory

He lost his chance
It’s all in the past
He lost her for the last time
That day two years ago in May.

Goodbye

Its time to say goodbye
To the broken promises
And broken dreams

Its time to say goodbye
To your silly smile
And your foolish games

Its time to say goodbye
To all the times you left me wondering
All the times you left me waiting in the pouring rain

It’s the end of you and me
You knew this day would come
Stop lying to yourself
There's no going back

All the feelings that we lacked
Breaking in the day
Killing in the night
There’s no denying

There was something there
Way back when
You used to care
It feels like it never happened
Like it was all made up
Just in my mind

We were just kids
Falling in love
There’s a reason they call it falling
Its was so innocent and pure
But we didn’t realize

It’s not the cure
Not even the way
It won’t ever work out
Between you and I

Its time to say goodbye
To what we used to be
Its time to say goodbye
To what could have been.

Push past the fear
Hold back the tears
Look for the day
When we find what’s right
The hour we find the difference
Between you and I
The minute we find the smile hidden in the darkness
The rose in a pile of thorns
Rips in our jeans
Dirt under our nails
We are all looking for
The light in the darkness
The music in our silent world
So what’s the difference
Two souls broken and searching
For something more
Something real to hold in our trembling hands
So out of reach
And out of sight
In the back of our minds
Dusty and unused
Is the thought of something greater
Forgotten and trampled
Like our childhood dreams