Summer Boy

He was the first boy to steal my heart
He was my first kiss
And my first broken heart

He was a boy from the 90’s
With a piercing in his left ear
Wind blowing in his hair
Summers ago we watched the clouds
Swam in his pool playing childish games

It was just a game
All fun and tame
Until that rainy day in May
I’m getting too old to just play
Were simply his last words

He had this way about him
Laughing about everything
Smiling like it was all okay
Nothing mattered but him and his ego

Until he got a flat tire
Sitting on the side of the road
Wanting to play games
He chased me with a smile
Forgetting the pain from our past
He wanted to have some fun

Gently I whispered
It’s over now
It’s too late to play games
It’s nothing but a distant memory

He lost his chance
It’s all in the past
He lost her for the last time
That day two years ago in May.

Goodbye

Its time to say goodbye
To the broken promises
And broken dreams

Its time to say goodbye
To your silly smile
And your foolish games

Its time to say goodbye
To all the times you left me wondering
All the times you left me waiting in the pouring rain

It’s the end of you and me
You knew this day would come
Stop lying to yourself
There's no going back

All the feelings that we lacked
Breaking in the day
Killing in the night
There’s no denying

There was something there
Way back when
You used to care
It feels like it never happened
Like it was all made up
Just in my mind

We were just kids
Falling in love
There’s a reason they call it falling
Its was so innocent and pure
But we didn’t realize

It’s not the cure
Not even the way
It won’t ever work out
Between you and I

Its time to say goodbye
To what we used to be
Its time to say goodbye
To what could have been.

Push past the fear
Hold back the tears
Look for the day
When we find what’s right
The hour we find the difference
Between you and I
The minute we find the smile hidden in the darkness
The rose in a pile of thorns
Rips in our jeans
Dirt under our nails
We are all looking for
The light in the darkness
The music in our silent world
So what’s the difference
Two souls broken and searching
For something more
Something real to hold in our trembling hands
So out of reach
And out of sight
In the back of our minds
Dusty and unused
Is the thought of something greater
Forgotten and trampled
Like our childhood dreams

Love is...

Everybody is looking for that someone
To be there
And hold them till the end of time
It’s the missing piece
In our brokenness
It’s what's right when we go wrong
It’s what holds us together
When all else fails
It’s what breaks us
And makes us strong
Its makes us smile
On those rainy days
And makes us laugh
When we want to cry
Love is what we all live for
Day after day
Night after night
Just the thought of it makes me weak in the knees
And those three little words
Make me melt away.

Draw the line

Confused and twisted
All alone I feel
Like there’s nothing in this world that matters
Pulled into darkness
Masked deny
Following the scent of thrill
Living in the moment
Dying in the next
It’s a spinning top
With alluring colors
And icy deceit
Drinking to numb this feeling
Smoking to make it all disappear
What in this place is right?
Does wrong even matter?
Living a double life
This whole in my heart can’t be filled
Everyone speaks of the one
The one to fill the hole
To make me live again
I’m filled but I feel just as empty as when I began
Maybe this is all a game
A story in some child’s mind
Or maybe I’m all alone in this place
The only one to fail
The only one to feel so alone and empty
What if this is just a joke?
What’s next in this world of lies?
Where’s the next knife coming from?
Who will be the next to be hurt and broken?
My life is a pile of broken glass
That’s been kicked around
And stomped on
Broken even further
What’s the point?
There’s nobody out there to pick up the pieces
Just to break them
And to take my hand
Then steal my heart
And smash it in my face
I’m tired of all the lies
Games and broken dreams
I’m going to find something that’s REAL
even if it kills me.

Untitled:.

You’ve got the fire burning
In every inch of my body
Every time you move
I feel it in my innermost being
Every word you have ever said
It all comes back to me
The first time we kissed
The time we danced under the stars
Every moment I’ve held on to
It all comes back to me
My body is screaming for more
It’s all about you
No one else could fill this void
So deep inside of me
You seem so distracted
As if I’m only on the sidelines
So distant and far
Your mind is racing
Don’t leave me here
In this place of peace
All the love that you showed
Was all just a game
One goal in mind
A piece of me nobody ever had
You stole it from me
All those times we shared
Was it all just a lie?
It all comes back to me
Everything’s so out of control
I’m losing focus
It’s so out of control
This can’t be real
Just remember the times we shared
Walking on the beach
Watching the sunset
You told me you loved me
You told me you cared
But now you’re just letting go
You thought I’d understand
I’m torn and broken to pieces
I can’t deny
I’m still in love with you
My body and mind are overwhelmed with thoughts of you
I still long for you
Your touch, your smile
But now you’re so far away
Your nothing more than a memory
Maybe there is no knight in shining armor
Maybe there is no happily ever after
You stole my innocence
And didn’t even take the time to care
You don’t deserve anything
You made my sky fall
You caused my light to burn out
It’s all your fault
I’ll never have a happy ending.

Let the Light Shine

She walked into the room
Full of beauty and grace
She was a bright light
In her world of darkness
Nobody knew the truth
No one saw through the mask
She was living a lie
Truth be told
She was breaking
Losing the light
No longer wanting to fight
Just like that a life was lost
She left the world that Saturday night
A part of our souls went with her
The mask has defeated her
The darkness overcame the light
Before she left
She did one last thing
She left her mark in this world
In the bathroom stall next to mine
Simply were the words written
Let the light shine.