Under lock and key...

Why is it easier
To be numb?

Why is it easier
To push you away?

Why is it easier
To put up walls?

I’m afraid
Of you
Of love
Of hurting.

I may be numb,
But I can still feel your pain.
You’re so far away
But I can feel you.

There may be a wall separating us.
But I still watch you through the cracks
The cracks are a sliver of hope,
Maybe an inner weakness?

I don’t deceive you.
There is a key somewhere
That will unlock
This guarded heart

You’re not the first to look for it,
You’re not the first to try your luck
Many before have tried their key,
Only to watch it rust
In their pathetic hands

There is only one key
There is only one way to break the walls
There is only one way to make me feel again

But there are,
So many questions,
And far too few answers.

So I’m left
Numb,
Scared,
And hiding,
But at least I’m safe?